Okay, where do I begin? Well, I'll begin at the bottom— rock bottom. I am 58 years old, with four grown children and sixteen grandchildren. I have experienced two failed marriages. Now here I sit, alone, on the front steps. I sit lifeless, emotionless, with breathing just an afterthought. I am paralyzed by fear and self-doubt. The past 40 years of my life were spent caring for other people. At some point, I forgot to take care of me. With a closed mind and heart, disconnected from family and friends, I wondered Now what?
Well, if you can get the words of praise and prayer out of your mouth, if at that point when you are at your lowest you still even believe, you can turn your life around. I attempted it! Looking around this world, I didn't know what to want, or even what to ask for. Everything I knew how to do had failed! It was then I was approached by Anne. Several of her earlier attempts to help me had fallen on deaf ears. Now, I was receptive. Maybe I just longed for human contact or the sound of a caring voice.
"You have what you need already. It's in you, not in the outside world," she said. The repeated chorus of What do you want? became almost unbearable to hear. I knew what I didn't want, but had no clue as to what I did want! I finally exclaimed, "I want joy!" What a breakthrough that moment was for me. Finally, after so many years, I put myself first and considered what I needed. "You have it already. You just need to do the work on yourself to bring it out!" said Anne.
After many long months of Anne’s uplifting, joy-filled, and sometimes stubborn attempts at making me look inside myself for happiness, instead of outside into the world for it, I became receptive. Her phone calls came, always at the moment, I needed them. More importantly, they came when I wasn't aware I needed them. Something profound came from each and every one.
I have come a long way from where I sat months ago. The journey was not without setbacks, doubts and the temptations of going back to what nearly destroyed me. However, the lessons I have learned from living my life from the Inside Out are immeasurable, life-altering, and something I need to pass on to someone who may sit in the position where I once sat.
The tools offered by Inside Out are many. The only person who can fully take advantage of these opportunities is you! It begins within you and the work is yours! As you grow to know, accept, and be grateful for who you really are and what you want, you will stand in the spotlight of your true self.
You will benefit immensely from the work you do, for YOU!